Sometimes a new turn that is just around the bend starts to materialize for me. Divine interventions start occurring.

Something my sister says about releasing the desire to control everything. A casual conversation with an acquaintance that opens my perspective. A bible study about unexpected events, intricately detailing how you can cope. An opportunity to truly release control of an important decision I would have typically tried to dominate. Stumbling upon a faith and science-based book about the way our brains physically change with negative or positive thoughts. Enraptured with a different book about God’s glory that made me finally understand some missing pieces. A line from that book about how life’s ‘just a moment.’ Reading a sweet article about miracles and the pitfalls of trying to accomplish a miracle on your own, by your own efforts, then getting a push to remember my own past miracle experiences. A podcast about growth and progression and how that all works. One forward click at a time.

Everything is just getting broken down into transparency and laying out in front of me. All of it has a hue of love, comfort, compassion, and connection.

So what is the turn around the bend that is coming together? The concept God has been gently leading me to, sending me loving messages one may claim as coincidences?

It’s grace.

I read a line today: “Grace is God’s power shining through you.”

Grace is releasing control. Grace is taking the pressure off yourself. Grace is getting out of the way. It is getting in touch with the sheer magnitude of who and what God is. How holy He is. How different than us. How infinitely loving. Grace is realizing this life is rigged in our favor and all the clenching of hands and plotting and planning to solve our stormy circumstances just blocks God. Grace is what comes when we say, “I can feel myself getting stronger.”

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."-2 Corinthians 12:9

I get it now. I didn’t used to understand this verse. Surrendering my life, plans, expectations, disappointments, and fears all reveal my weakness in that I cannot solve or control them. I’m not supposed to. All these road signs I’m currently seeing, leading me to a better understanding of grace, are showing me that I’m supposed to need God. I’m not made to go at it alone and the sooner I realize this, the sooner I can experience His rest. 

I’m made to be weak simply so He can reveal Himself to me, showing me the life I’m supposed to live.

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”-2 Timothy 1:7

I always thought that our weaknesses meant something shameful or wrong. Now I know our weaknesses are the lightening rod which makes us connect with our Creator.

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